Hi there everyone..!!
Sorry my long absence but I was in a very far place, on a healing retirement/therapy to have some peace of mind in Falcon meadows, a lovely place n_n! now I'm active again. I was told my brain and soul need to be creative so I was actually encouraged to keep doing any kind of artistic activities again n_n! As some of you know I've been living a real Inferno over here, but I...WE have FINALLY reached the light at the end of the tunnel...sort of! but it wasn't without a price however...
The Sun has finally shined in dark places: My cousin is finally facing the consequences of his acts!! it turned out that he was actually handled by one of his supposed ''friends'' (an adult), he gave him substances and made him do bad things. My cousin is no angel but he was also a victim. but they got into legal trouble with the authorities (very well deserved)...sadly the real minders got away with it but not my cousin, not this time!!. He's facing very heavy consequences now but at least he's finally getting the help he needed so bad. His body and mind are clearer, and we've made our peace. He's also away on healing retirement as I was. He's getting help for his antisocial bipolar behavior and inner anger. but his therapy retirement is under some legal conditions and heavy surveillance for his own good!. His father (my uncle) is yet to come to really help his son.
As for me, my sun is not that shining after all this drama and stress, it's more like a dim Moon: I've lost a lot of weight, my hair is falling off, I'm suffering from stress, my dyslexia is getting worse (I suffer dyslexia but my problem is with numbers instead of letters and alphabet) and also I was told I suffer ''extreme daydreaming'' (Maladaptive Daydreaming disorder), it has always be part of me (and that explains a LOT of things in my life), but after all what I went through it got worse to the point of constantly being ''unplugged'' even without any stressful stimuli, totally out of control, specially when I'm listening to music. But it is a sweet/fun/cool experience, at least for me and I don't care what other ppl think about it!!....AND TO TOP IT OFF comes the scariest thing ever: I have missing time!!! =S . My cousin always had missing time before but we thought it was because of drugs!, but I don't do drugs!!!!!. Are we synced up?!!...I feel like someone's opened Pandora's box in my head!!.
On the bright side of everything, my family's life is peaceful now, no more drugs, no more bad people coming and leaving, no more fights, trauma, drama, death treats...no more sexual depravity!!!. Everything is quite and peaceful as it used to be! even my dogs are happy now!!...my cousin has some peace now, I have some peace now..we lived a living hell, an Inferno, but still we somehow made it (body and soul) through the fire and that made us stronger!!